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1-2-3 within 20 minutes

drove by 3 car accidents (one of which seemed to be a total loss incident) on way to my student's this afternoon. what a day! as my car managed to sift through the quarantine intersections i couldn't help this unease that i had for the drivers and to their families. do hope that they will be able to look beyond what had happened to instead focus on both the physical and mental healing that full recovery will bring.

abba father,
thank-you for granting us lives! i reckon how fragile life can be. thank-you for keeping me, my families and friends safe on the road. may you bless also the various parties involved in today's car accidents - may your healing hand be upon them.

live in Whistler next feb?

knew i would be working extra-extra long hrs in feb...(plan at this point was still to remain in vancouver but did hear news today that i may be based in whistler for the entire month of feb?? (while this is to be finalized - personal preference would be to remain in a service apartment here in vancouver - much closer home!

the urge to write things down

got off late and didn't make it to fellowship tonight
missed 2 fellowships and 2 services in the last short while...


it's funny how i've caught back the desire to write out my feelings down despite all this busyness. inner need to take time to slow things down and to re-establish different rhythm?

1 thing i do know is that i'm getting more forgetful... tasks a/b/c/d/e/f/g now have become a/c/d/e/f...

all are heavy-burdened!

super exhausted. pulled another long day at work (?10-11hrs?) of conf. calls and meetings. but whom am i to complain - our entire team is undergoing the same. "A" just flew back from Dawson City and was pretty much on his way back to the office, "B" was ill yet was on e-mail. this tyranny of busyness reigns everywhere... and dwells within my family setting. i go home and witness how "C" fervently digest all his piles of books in preparation for next month's CFA exam, how "D" is polishing her papers (to be submitted ahem i presume by end of night, and how "E" is busy doing all that is necessary so that food is literally on the table. this myriad of preoccupation is certainly draining albeit a manifestation of productivity at his highest (?). while i hope that a healthier equilibrium will soon be reached i am thankful for this inner dwelling capacity that keep us going for the time being!

don't give up...

was at post-production house this afternoon to complete voice-over of footages we’ve shot lately. my task was simple: read text so that the recorded pieces can be made into french narrated clips. i should have been better prepared for this and not just do a cold read in the studio as i kept stumbling upon one paragraph. i did fine on the others but just couldn’t nail this one. there i was re-narrating about the accomplishment of Sarubbi Caitlin – that despite being born with a rare syndrome (only 7 cases in the world) and after 57 surgeries, this Paralympian master her way down the slope. to be honest i’ve almost reach a high point of frustration – not at the long script but at myself (really...come on get it done so that i can move on to my other tasks). but then as I’ve began my “x” attempts, the “essence” of what i was reading daunted on me… Sarubbi never gave up even when circumstances were against her . this thought of persistence helped me regroup and finally helped me make the cut! yes – don’t rush and don’t give up - anxiety can work against what you're looking to accomplish. that written, now back to more work but with a grateful heart!

visit of the long lost?

just came back from Whistler. a short work-related trip.

don't know if it was change of temperature or weather but i've been re-experiencing something long gone - shortness of breath. true, haven't had chance to exercise lately but how can this positively correlate to the resurgence of asthma?

baba,

you know my history, you know what i have gone through as a kid. i ask for your protection; i ask that you distance me from the unwanted and that you grant me a healthy body to sustain what's forthcoming!